You guys... it is 12:31 a.m. and I am just starting this post.
That's insanity, my friends.
But I've had some things on my mind where I needed to research some dates, and that led me to this blog, cause, ya know, I used to be good at posting and stuff... and then 3 kids happened.... callings happened... picking up a part time job happened.... Friends on Netflix happened... and before you know it, it's been months since I've written anything.
Booooooo!
I really enjoy reading about what my family has done, the feelings I've had, and just looking at how my girls have grown. I'm a pretty darn avid user of Instagram, so I can't feel completely guilty, but I desperately want to capture these moments with my children.
They're growing up too fast, and it makes me excited/scared/worried/nervous/sad/and-every-other-emotion possible.
I have been trying really hard to savor these moments with my girls. I desperately want capture their laughs, their smells, and their little profiles... yes, profiles. I am obsessed with how each one is different! Ava's little chin... Halle's button nose, and Coco's pouty lips. I can't help myself!
Enjoying the chaos that is my life hasn't been an easy journey. But I feel God is helping me. I feel my heart growing and I am having more tender feelings towards my children and find myself wanting to spend more time with them, rather than looking at them as burdens or as annoying little creatures. Okay, that last part does happen from time to time, since we're being honest. :) But for the most part, I am in awe of them and the gift of love they have given me.
Well, part of savoring life is just to have pure fun once in a while.
It's spring break, and we are having a staycation. Wait, we do that every spring break. Why? Cause we're too darn poor to go anywhere.
Saturday I went grocery shopping and decided to buy all kinds of foods we don't normally eat.
Like chips and yogurt topped with M&M's. Cinnamon Toast Crunch, chocolate milk, and jelly beans are some others. As I was unloading the groceries, Nate saw the chips and asked, "What are these for? You never buy chips!" I can honestly count on my hands the number of times I've bought chips in the past 9 years... and most of those times have been for family BBQ's or something picnic-y like that.
But for spring break, only junk food will do. Calories don't count and I shall not feel guilty about consuming completely processed foods.
Yesterday, Jess came over with her kids, and we had chili dogs for lunch. And chips. Chili dogs and chips. We always have chili dogs with the Bills family. It's like our thing. :)
Anywho, the girls played playdough, I made Funfetti cookies, and then their friends came over and destroyed the house (I vacuumed and swept twice yesterday!) and all was right in the world.
Today, we went to Papa's Pizza. Now, this isn't anything special... I have been going every other Tuesday for the past 3 1/2 years, but Ava hasn't been since school started. So, we went. It was smelly and stinky and fun.
Tuesday nights are usually my night to catch up on grown-up things like bills and more bills. And maybe throw in an episode of Drop Dead Diva while Nate is at YM. But YOLO, so I took the girls to Cinderella. Movies are $5 on Tuesdays and we don't ever go to the theater. My only problem was what to do with Coco. I didn't want to have to deal with her at the movies. She kinda goes crazy when she's tired, and she didn't really get a nap today.... wasn't gonna go there.
Christie offered to have her husband watch C, so I took C to their house, put her to bed, picked up Christie, and we went to the movies together.
I divied out the candy before the show started, and I looked at Halle with her wad of cotton candy, and I couldn't get enough of her! She was just chomping away at that wad, and it made me giggle. That's when I knew I had to be better about capturing the deets in our lives!
Our plans for the rest of the week are:
Wednesday: help Christie pack up her kitchen. She just bought a house and is moving this weekend!!!
Thursday: I have an eye appt in the morning and then I'm probably headed to the beach. We'll see how the weather treats us.
Friday: I have a meeting in the morning for my calling (I am now the Visiting Teaching Coordinator) and am going to Blue Start Donuts in the afternoon.
Saturday: We are going to the Exotic Reptile Show (I'm super stoked... I don't know how the girls feel about it...) and the RS General Broadcast is that night.
Then next week... back to reality. I have a vinyl deal going on Jane.com this weekend, so I'll be busy busting my bum to get orders our next week. Hence why I wanted to just play this week. :)
This life is a beautiful thing. It is hard and stressful but I have been beyond blessed. I have a beyond beautiful family, a man whom I love with all my heart and soul, my marriage is better than I ever could have imagined, and I am lucky enough to be able to stay home with my kids. There are times I wish I didn't have to work, but I am so lucky to have a little job where I can work at night and into the wee hours of the mornings when my kids are asleep.
This life is so wonderful and so precious. I hope to capture more moments of it and savor every minute.
